"—So it's at least plausible that if I got to your world and hit my stride I might one day be able to tell the world itself to fuck off. And if I go back home with nothing, having experienced this tantalizing opportunity, I do think my odds will have shifted in favour of death. It's hard to predict by how much. The more time I spend pondering the question at all, the likelier it is that I won't be able to go back to my nice quiet life as a skirmish player and will instead do something prematurely hubristic and get myself killed."