high-energy physics

[warpfairy]

Federation political prisons are not particularly uncomfortable. She's not going anywhere, but she can read, she's considering taking up an instrument, the only really awkward thing is that she doesn't particularly want to be supervised while she's sweating her way through her next pon farr one way or another but that's years off. That and she wishes she'd taken longer to get caught. But she was running out of the really low-hanging fruit anyway.

This is what she signed up for. She makes up imaginary profiles of people on the planets she got to, people who can live longer fuller lives with the stars in reach, one per day. One per day and she'll have loads of estimated impact left unused when she dies. Perfectly reasonable tradeoff and she can still read books.

Someone wants to interview her about Vulcan; they don't want to lose anything that anybody remembers; she gives the interview and then picks up some poetry.

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[lintamande]

There's obviously more but he doesn't ask.





"Should we expect her back?"

[subtly_artistic]

"In a week."

[lintamande]

"Okay." Hugs.

[warpfairy]

When T'Mir comes back she is doing a - thing.

It is sort of hard to identify exactly what the thing is. She doesn't so much have flat affect as... no affect.

[lintamande]

Rúmil definitely notices this. Rúmil is worried. He does not say anything. He does mention Angband occasionally, in case anyone would like to know that that's a topic that can be discussed if it'd be helpful.

[warpfairy]

"What is Angband?"

[lintamande]

"It was a stronghold of the Enemy during the war. I spent about a century there as a prisoner."

[warpfairy]

"I see. - My current lack of emotional state, if it concerns you, is voluntary and I will end it soon."

[lintamande]

"Is this a Vulcan attribute?"

[warpfairy]

"Vulcans learn to induce it. Most of them make more frequent use than I do."

[lintamande]

"All right."

[warpfairy]

"Thank you for your concern."

[lintamande]

"Let me know if there's anything I can do."

[warpfairy]

"I do not expect that there is, but it is kind of you to offer."

[lintamande]

So they wait for her to decide to turn it off.

[warpfairy]

She keeps it another day and a half, and then disappears into her ship for a bit, and then comes back a little green around the eyes but otherwise calm-but-having-emotions again.

[lintamande]

And Rúmil does not comment on this unless she would like to talk about it, but Fëanáro goes "you're back!!"

[warpfairy]

"...I've been back for a couple days."

[lintamande]

"You were being like a Maia who doesn't know how to do faces. What happened?"

[warpfairy]

"Oh, I don't lose my ability to make facial expressions when I'm suppressing, they just wouldn't be meaningful and I don't prefer to make deceptive ones."

[lintamande]

"That makes sense. I've never seen anyone but a Maia not do faces before, though. Are you - not feeling anything? When you're like that? Why would you want that?"

[warpfairy]

"When I'm doing that I don't feel anything, and I do it so I can think clearly instead of being distracted by upsetting feelings. Then I deal with the feelings after I already have thoughts about them set up."

[lintamande]

"Can I learn it? I have a blasting spell for emotions but maybe that's not the best way."

[warpfairy]

"It's pretty hard for people who aren't Vulcans or part Vulcans to learn, but I could try, if you want."

[lintamande]

"In my fate when I'm mad I kill a lot of people."