yeah that happens if you turn into a vampire

[cross_and_bow]

(prologue)

Bella slips into the school by a side door; she just saw a thing and she thinks she's seen it in a book before and thinks it's supposed to be mostly harmless but before she wakes Giles up over probably nothing or kills a likely neutral demon she wants to check.

And she pushes into the library.

Comments

[thisvorlunatic]

"If that happened to me and there was anything like enough left of me to realize what I'd lost, I'd probably kill myself," reflects Miles. "But I suppose the really scary part is that there wouldn't be enough left."

[cross_and_bow]

"Suicidal vampires are as far as I'm aware very uncommon, but there are ones who engage in possibly suspicious amounts of riskseeking behavior."

[thisvorlunatic]

"The way Zeke talks about it, he'd barely notice the difference if he got his soul back, except for being slightly more strongly motivated not to eat people. But he's been a vampire for longer than he was ever human."

[cross_and_bow]

"I... think there's some incentive to consider it either a complete break or a minor blip in continuity."

[thisvorlunatic]

"Mm?"

[cross_and_bow]

"Well, say you wind up about the same except now you eat people, and eating people doesn't feel important, so you round to 'same person, only less uptight' or something; or say you lose basically your entire personality all in one go because it was very heavily interpolated with your soul, then you go 'that person I was is dead and they were super lame, too' - I don't think many vampires wake up and go 'I now I have a mental illness which makes me very different but I retain identity with who I was before that'?"

[thisvorlunatic]

"I... see what you mean. Although that last option is pretty much where I'm at."

[cross_and_bow]

"Yes," she says, "and you are a weird vampire."

[thisvorlunatic]

"Apparently so."

[cross_and_bow]

"On which accomplishment I congratulate you."

[thisvorlunatic]

"Thanks."

[cross_and_bow]

"You're welcome!"

[thisvorlunatic]

"Being a weird vampire seems vastly superior to being a normal one."

[cross_and_bow]

"Especially if you run into me. ...Sorry, I was going to stop it with the relentlessy reminding you of that thing."

[thisvorlunatic]

"Yes, you were," says Miles. "Apology accepted. Thank you for trying."

[cross_and_bow]

"You're welcome."

[thisvorlunatic]

"I appreciate it."

[cross_and_bow]

Drive drive.

[thisvorlunatic]

Quiet vampires.

[cross_and_bow]

And eventually: airport.

"Have a fun soul adventure. Please be gentle stowing away on the plane, and don't get caught or they'll add having crosses waved in one's face as a TSA screening procedure and the lines'll be twice as long."

[thisvorlunatic]

Snicker. "Will do."

[cross_and_bow]

"Lemme know if you need a ride when you get back!" She gives them her phone number.

[thisvorlunatic]

"Thanks. Take care. If I come back and find you've been killed in the line of duty, I will look into resurrection."

[cross_and_bow]

"Aww, thanks, although please consult people on that, I hear it can be a real disaster handled improperly."

[thisvorlunatic]

"Noted."